It's not good, but actually, it worked...

I had an emotional breakdown for the last month.

I lost a total of 6 kilos in a month, and it was not done the right way.

I lost my partner, who can be the love of my life in September. For one year and a half, he has been my confidante and the closest thing I have ever had to a life long partner. I was broken, for the first three weeks.

I stopped eating for the first 48 hours and stayed in my room, crying and trying to forget it by sleeping.

After that, I was trying to get my mind off it by over working my body. I was not eating enough and often, I dove into work.

Emotionally, I was in a state of shock, which I didn't realize, and sort of... refused to realize.

The 6 kilos loss, although... was favorable to me, was reaped out of an unfortunate event.

I trying to heal myself both emotionally and physically right now. I am still losing weight, but I am back on track with my eating habits.

One of my friends agreed that bad things do... work... to a certain degree... in a twisted kind of way.

Like when you had diarrhea (Which I have never had and wish that I will never have that awful experience) you tend to lose weight from all the trips to the toilet.

I have to thank my friends for reminding me that I still have a life to live. And first thing's first.... I have to heal my heart to heal my body.

Love,

A**

Consistency

Hi all,

It is true that I update my personal blog of nothing much more often than I do on this blog.

It is also true that there are two authors in this blog.

My other blogmate is busy with being a mother, a wife and a student.

Me on the other hand, is busy with living life and thanking my blessings for everything great that happened.

Recently, I have decided to get on the organic wagon. Being organic needs discipline, and a considerably high monetary budget is preferable.

I started small, by buying organic manuka honey, peanut butter and vegies. It's manageable as there is only one of me to feed and so therefore, I don't need to fret when it comes to the price.

I am someone who plans her meal every two days. I will be visiting the grocer to get fresh produce so that I will be able  prepare a healthy wholesome meal.

I am not someone who would go to the grocer once a week, load up and to throw out some of the stuff that I bought because it goes bad. It's not effective, cost-wise.

I advocate an organic and eco friendly lifestyle, however, I also understand that not all of us can afford to do this. I don't push this belief (Or any belief) down anyone's throat, although I do sometimes talk about it and try to get them on the wagon. It's the same with working out, and being disciplined with what you believed in.

Have a blessed Ramadhan, to those who are fasting.

Don't use fasting as an excuse for gluttony. Eat smart and healthy!

Peace!

Gym Routine 07/08/2012

Stairmaster : Speed 6 : 5 mins

Treadmill : Speed 7.5 : 0.5 km. 5 mins.

Balance ball squat : 10x 2 reps
Front kick : 15x 2 reps
Bosu push ups : 10x 2 reps

Cool Down :

Sun salutation 6x

Chakrasana
Pigeon pose
Half plank pose

How do you mend a broken...

Wrist...

Yes... well... mine is not that 'broken' but... I am trying my best to hope it won't go any more 'broken' than it is.

So the only thing that I have been doing was running.

And some non-wrist action interval training.

My right wrist was injured during a Chakrasana pose practice.

I lost my footing, and the weight of my body accidentally (naturally) fell on my right hand, twisted it in a microsecond and the wrist pretty much carried my whole weight before my whole body fell to the ground.

My wrist was sore after that but I didn't think too much about it (Mistake #1) because I have had yoga related accidents before this and usually it the soreness would be gone in 24 hours.

Unfortunately, the soreness turned to an annoying blunt pain for the next 72 hours, and then for the next two weeks, and then right until now.

I went to my chiro and was given a cold lotion thingy (pardon my uncivilized language when it comes to medicines and the likes) and was advised to ice my wrist for an interval of 15 mins for 8 hours (or so) for the next few weeks.

That's like a few weeks ago.

My wrist is still annoyingly sore. I am still annoyed that I can't so my salutations as usual.

Annoyed... Irritating..

I was told that I looked better now.

And get this, I looked better from when I was 'skinnier'.

I laughed of course because I can't really remember of any time when I was truly deemed 'Skinny'.

Well, for the last few weeks, I have been concentrating more on Yoga than anything else. Time had been a luxury I can't really afford and although I was working from home more than I would like, I don't have time for  a 2 hours circuit and interval training regiment.

 And my diet. HAH... I am almost on the verge of saying... 'What diet?'

The only thing I stuck with is to control my carb intake...

Although I have to eventually be a part time vegetarian, I suspected that I am somewhat allergic to some meat types.

So... maybe I should look into looking better, without being too hard on myself.

This is the latest photo of moi... no flexing this time. :)

Love self, Stay healthy!

BMI scare

Yes, I recalculated my BMI and I was at borderline of overweight and average.

This scares me. For the past several months, yes I have been slacking. My slackitude has everything to do with my work demands. I can work 12 hours straight and I wouldn't even realize it.

Which is... BAD.

So... in a bit to get back to that average BMI, I am going back to the gym and going back to circuit training... coupling that together with yoga, most definitely.

Ganbatte?

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